Tech - Women in Industry

I have written about this before, and about my personal experience of working with females. Today I've read this post by female BSD admin/advocate/instructor Dru Lavigne (make sure you read this comment as well, possibly even instead of the blog post as it's shorter) and I agree — after a woman proves her worth, she gets treated with respect; trying to survive on "cute" or attempting to be all macho only alienates colleagues. The environment is very macho, lots of dick measuring contests and posturing. The first reaction to a female is always like the title of the section under the photo at Erinn Clark's about page (LOL by the way) — here's a recent example from my own blog.

Where I work there is the added difficulty of not only IT being male-dominant but the "outside" organization being the cliché male-dominant society. Dev leads are commissioned officers and are expected to act like it, which leads to lots of silliness and quite a bit of angst.

My hot female teammate is scheduled for officer's training in a couple of months. I have disagreed with all my bosses about her prospects as a future team lead, but I really do wish her the best. I believe I might be overcompensating in her case, but I have observed the debilitating effect on myself and others too many times not to be wary. You see, I find smart women attractive. But sadly, the link works both ways, and I perceive women I find attractive as being smarter. I'm not the only one. I am absolutely sure E.G. had a crush on her when he praised her, and since he praised her technical abilities (which leave much to be desired), he probably overestimated her leadership abilities as well. I know her supervisor accurately estimated her skill as a developer, but he too vehemently defended her potential as a good officer, though he did blurt something like "yeah, a guy with her skills would be pretty useless, but if she can properly work her feminine wiles she would get the job done". So I manage not to notice how good looking she is, and I try to be objective, and I don't see any special leadership skills beyond not being socially inept. And she would need to earn the respect of a technically competent geek for her team to produce anything worthwhile. I think it would be very educational for me to watch her do it.

Harry Finds Jesus

Disclaimer: I have never flamed Aaran-St-Vines, and I was outraged with the Kokopelli@SQ wank.

As a reply to Kokopelli's beta notes author's notes at the bottom of the latest chapter of Aaran-St-Vines' dual fic (two parallel novels, one for H/G, the other for H/H) posted at FFA I wish to quote from the chapter:

Father William came in to inquire about Occlumency lessons that night, but stopped when he saw how Harry was attired. Harry told him of his mission. The priest volunteered to pray for his success, and told Harry that he'd enlist the prayers of those of the friary who knew of the magical world.

Harry didn't quite understand why this comforted him so, but every time Fr. William prayed, good seemed to come of it, and he wasn't stupid enough to turn down any help.

Harry had come to the conclusion that since there was Evil in the world, there had to be Good, and he was unwilling for that to be some mystical goodie-goodie force. Good and Evil had faces in this world, and Harry felt that these matters were personal - not personal meaning 'for each person to decide,' that was nonsense to him. It either was or wasn't true, and all his wishing wouldn't make Voldemort go away.

No, when he thought that Evil and Good were personal, he meant they were person-like, as if there were a God and a Devil. He viewed it not as simplistic or simple-minded, but simply, manifestly true.

Harry believed in magic, which most Muggles thought didn't exist. Why did it take so much more faith to believe that God or a Devil existed? He wasn't planning on going on a crusade for his beliefs, nor was he going to force others to believe as he did. He just believed. He had received too much comfort from reading the scriptures. Father William often quoted a passage, which said that faith came from hearing the Word of God, and Harry had found great peace reading about David, the boy who had defied all odds and defeated the giant.

It wasn't that Harry went looking for peace and found it, as in he manufactured it in his head when reading the book the priest gave him. No, he read the book and found that peace came to him unsolicited. If Father William wanted to pray for him, he was all for it.

Now, my reply: This is not like mentioning ghosts or Greek mythology creatures. Here the main character Believes, with capital B. So yes, unlike canon, this story has religion in it. Politeness says it should come with a disclaimer. That's all what I wanted to say at the moment.

Me - Life

So, I've read this blog post by some guy who was a computer science professor at Leeds. And he describes the profile of a type of student he calls a BBM. Well, I didn't even have the perseverance (or brains) to get my sorry ass to college, but the symptoms are the same. I wonder if it's a studied problem and whether there are good methods to deal with it. Reading up about it on Wikipedia.

Fandom - Funny!

This is insanely funny. I don't know why.

Web Tech / Humor - Hebrew Numbering System in CSS specs

Apparently, some poor soul had to research the thing to write the spec for CSS lists. Here are the findings. It sounds ridiculous from the outsider's perspective. A fun read!

Self - Hardware troubles, Distro change

My 20GB 7200rpm ATA66 Maxtor, which I bought in mid-2000, finally died, a year after warning me for the first time. I can't complain - I had ample opportunity to "backup and replace", as the SMART warning said. Most of it was backed up, so I burned all the junk from the other hard drive to DVDR (using Knoppix) and decided to try that newfangled Ubuntu thing (my poor Pentium3 is just too slow to regularly recompile just about everything, as I was running Gentoo in ~x86 and emerge -avuDN world daily…). It formatted a partition I did not want it to format (I believe I have unclicked the option), and misconfigured grub to try and boot from the wrong partition. Admittedly, my partitions were ordered in the partition-table not in the same order they are actually layed out on disk, but that is completely legal. Anyway, after some trivial twiddling with parted mkfs.reiserfs and grub, a second attempt worked. It's a nice touch how they give you a working firefox and thunderbird while you wait for it to install, but the boot takes ages and it chose the maximum resolution for my monitor, not what I find comfortable. Since I only had the 6.06 version on a free CD (thanks B.), I installed that, thinking upgrading to the latest version of each package is trivial. Well, it's not trivial, but it's easy. You just edit a plan text file, and let it download a gig of files. I wonder if it's compiled for at least i686. It comes with a whole bunch of stuff I don't need, it will take me a while to uninstall all that junk safely. Also, it didn't ask *anything* while installing. I'll have to read some logs to find out what it decided to do. All in all, I'm not very impressed yet.

Fandom - Disenchantment

First, the story. Hopefully it will stay there for posterity, while CC wipes the fandom's collective memory, deleting archived fan fiction and mailing list postings, in preparation for her career as a published author. I sure hope her publisher has some serious cross-referencing mojo and liability insurance.

So, for a long time I used to be a real Cassie Claire fangirlboy. Sure, I've heard something about plagiarism and I knew there was a story behind the founding members of fictionalley.org leaving FFN (and why it was called "The Site That Must Not Be Named" by some people) but all those people (e.g. Heidi) are really big and central to the fandom I knew*, so they must have been in the right, and the opposition (FFN, not R/H-ers) must have been in the wrong, and I never thought of going to the source and finding out for myself what the story was. It's a sorry excuse, but I wasn't the only one who fell for it. What really surprised me was that in all that time (five years!), I have never heard RJA say "Wolf, CC is a plagiarist. Those lines you love in her story were not written by her. Here, read this". I think I respect RJA more for it, though I still would've liked to be told. Maybe people assumed I know?

So, once again, I'm worshipping the cool kids from the sidelines, thinking that if I follow their LJs some of that coolness would rub off. I am quite disgusted by myself. It reminds me of Dave Winer and the founding of Atom. I used to be a fanboy before I started reading Tim Bray, Joe Gregorio, Sam Ruby and Mark Pilgrim. Looks like the sheeple instinct is strong in me.

* - SQ's and GT's apparent fanatism didn't help. Now I pity the poor folks at portkey.org (though I agree with many of the reasons for H/Hr), but then the people who didn't mix well with the people of Schnoogle always seemed decidedly more strict and less cool.

Fandom - on alternate lifestyle evangelism in liberal arts

I started writing this and it became me trying to say what I think about gays, and I don't know what I think. But anyway, I don't like reading slash fan fiction. Just because. I'm allowed to not like reading slash, right? So I really don't like it when authors don't say "slash" in the blurb/description/author notes, don't mention anything slashy going on, you're enjoying the story, and then the author introduces slash. So you are forced to either stop reading a story you liked, or keep reading and hope the slash doesn't get any worse*. I've read that some people sometimes do it on purpose. Another tactic is to introduce secondary and/or tertiary gay characters (sometimes OCs) in a subplot, so it's not the focus but the reader gets used to it being mentioned every few paragraphs. All attempts to educate the public, I'm sure. It's not fandom, it's the times. Kevin Smith does it, Lois McMaster Bujold does it. There is a major campaign to get gays into the mainstream. They always were well accepted with the artsy crowd, and I don't support bigots (being Jewish and all), but I don't like this evangelism. Please disclose slashiness upfront.

* - I have read After The End, but I have stopped reading Stealing Harry, though it was very good. I don't remember whether there was any warning when I first saw it.

Update

So.

Had a meeting with team lead and project manager where we discussed my job description and our plan for fulfilling my role after I leave. I have been pushing for such a meeting for a year. Project manager decided that although we have known at least two years in advance of the impeding knowledge/skill lose, there is nothing we can do in time for January 2008. Thus, complexity developed in more than a hundred man years and deployed in an increasing number of sites is going to be maintained by two people. I predict that in three years, the systems will be completely non-maintained, as just the training required will demand more man-hours than the project will be able to supply. A year later, the next version write-from-scratch will be initiated by the clients. I cannot express how demoralizing that is.

I have begun to think about what I want to do when I grow up. Turning twenty-two and all that. I don't think I want to go to college at twenty-four, though I guess I could work part-time. I don't want to be a Dilbert in some job in an organization that is run like the IDF's main IT unit, with incompetent nincompoops in charge of dispassionate developers. I don't know what role to apply for, as I'm kind of a jack of all trades and a master of none, due to me being the only technically inclined person in a fifteen-person team of bloody software developers. I could say I'm a dotNET code monkey, or an Oracle Sla^H^H^HDBA, or a C coder. I could probably pass for a Java or C++ entry-level developer, but God I hate that stuff. I don't know if there's any work in Python or Ruby that is not research. I don't know where people do serious client-side AJAX code. I don't know if I have enough experience in any one field to get hired as a specialist and I don't know if I want to continue to be a "does everything" guy and whether such jobs exist.

I've read some reviews of the new nVidia chip. I don't even get the "I wanna!" feeling anymore.

I've read about the plans for Mozilla 2, Macromedia/Adobe's generous gift of a JS2 JIT compiler, the gfx backend work. Very nice. Might make JavaScript a viable platform some day, like I keep telling people. Though making Cairo fast enough sounds impossible to me.

After reading a lot of bug reports/whining, I've managed to figure out that portage didn't cause the recompile of Mesa, xorg-server, xf86-driver-ati and Beryl when it updated glproto on my machine, and after waiting for all that stuff to compile Beryl works fine. I have to say that looking at it on your own computer rather than a flash movie is more impressive, especially considering what a puny computer that is. I won't keep it, but it really is pretty.

Have been exploring GoogleEarth and showing it to my parents. They were impressed. I wish to thank Google for compiling it for Linux - works like a charm, though Beryl still has some issues with it. It's quite amazing. My parents were especially impressed with Diego Garcia and showing me that home I spent the first two years of my life in, not with the rich metadata available for civilized countries (sadly Israel isn't).

A long time ago, a friend of Elizabeth suggested I read the Left Behind series. I politely refused, saying I won't read it for the same reason I won't read C.S.Lewis. It was four years ago, I think. They appeared to be quite bewildered, and I didn't want to say it sounded like evangelizing to me. Anyway... this story is just crazy enough to be true. And I'm not miffed because I'm Jewish, but because I'm sane.

xkcd.com is often funny.

Science fiction was unbelievably chauvinistic, untill... I don't know. Apart from LMB, it might still be chauvinistic as far as I know. And boys grew up on that shit.

fanficauthors.net is crack.

I forget what else I wanted to blog about.

Geeks/Girls - VM rootkits

For those who don't follow security developments - a new technology in mainstream CPUs called VT allows hardware assisted virtualization, meaning an operating system (like Microsoft^tm Windows^tm) can run inside another operating system and never know it's not actually running on the bare metal. Thus the outside operating system has total control of the inside operating system, and cannot be detected. This allows viruses that completely own your computer and it can never tell. Very bad.
Anyway, there was an interview with a security researcher about this hot topic. The interview got slashdotted, a technical debate ensued. This comment made me laugh so hard, because it's true.

Depression 22

So. Am I laughing or am I crying? I don't rightly know. As a wise acquaintance once said: "life sucks and then you die". Well, he has a job and girlfriend while I have parents I need to support. Is this a cry for help? I think it's just a cry. Happy Birthday to me…

Life - A*Holes

Today someone broke my dad's car's windshield and stole a pouch with my my dad's id, license and registration. I guess they thought there would be money in the pouch, but there wasn't. Wouldn't it be cool if cars would record video footage and transmit to somewhere safe? You don't need to store the data for long, and any idiot who harms the car knows he's on tape somewhere. It would also help to find out what happened in accidents.

In completely unrelated news, I've downloaded Season 01 of The Simpsons - it's still funny!

Web - Washington Post Literary Contest - Two-for-One

Found out about it through John Cowan's signatures file (from which I borrow liberally). Very funny, in a very geeky sort of way. link.

Life/Fandom/Poetry(!) - Gender Wars

A while ago I've read some fic where the author quoted (in full) a Rudyard Kipling poem titled "The Female of the Species" (if copyright expires 70 years after the author's death, it's public domain since January, but I won't copy it here. Just look it up). I don't remember much but I think that Harry used the poem to educate Draco that attacking Hermione (or was it Ginny?) is not a smart move. Today, while jogging, it surfaced with a remembered feeling of unease. I remembered it bothering me when I first read it, but I couldn't tell why. So I've looked it up and indeed, it's not a poem about wildlife at all! It's a poem against women suffrage, and regardless of the fic author's gender, it looks like s/he didn't read it well. It was published in 1911, which as far as I know means women's rights were on the public debate. Or am I delusional?

Life - Mothers are the Devil

… or is it just mine?

P.D. has been saying I need to move out of my parents' home for a while. I still think it's financially a bad decision, but maybe growing up has a price as well. I am getting sick and tired of the last five years of doing absolutely nothing.

N.C. got himself discharged, the empty seat reminds everyone at the office that the boat is sinking fast. Curse E.H. to everlasting damnation.

R., I remember. I'll drop by soon with your stuff.

Health and happiness to all on this new Jewish year!

Hardware - Stalling

I have been planning to replace my aging computer for a while. First I have been waiting for my conscription to end and my contract to kick-in, so I'll have income. I had the money to buy a computer even before, but I didn't want to spend it. Then I was waiting for a better alternative than the DFI nForce 4 Ultra which was expensive, ran hot and required lots of fiddling. I have been waiting for an ATI-chipset-based overclocking-friendly full-featured not-overpriced socket-939 motherboard. Then AM2 came out, and with it better motherboards. Still nothing that awesome, and Anand said "wait for Conroe". Conroe came out in the summer, and yeah, it's awesome and I want it. But there are no decent cheap motherboards. The cheapest, most problematic board with Conroe/Allendale support, the Gigabyte DS3, costs a thousand NIS. And of course, this is as frustrating as ever:

	Item	US price	US price in NIS	Price in Israel	Ripoff rate PCT
CPU	Intel Core 2 Duo E6600	333	1458	2000	37.17
Mobo	ASUS 975X P5W DH Deluxe	240	1050	1700	61.90
Ram	Corsair DDR2 PC-6400 2x1024MB Kit	274	1200	1850	54.16
Video	Brand GeForce 7300GT 256MB Silent	83	363	500	37.74
Storage	Western Digital Caviar 2500KS 250GB	78	341	430	26.09
Exch Rate: 4.377			4412	6480	46.87

To this I need to add a decently-quiet, well-ventilated case and a quiet, efficient, stable power supply unit. That can be a thousand NIS together. And I need a monitor.

The more I read about this stuff, the less I'm sure there's a good choice. Every part has problems, compatibility issues, etc. Wanting it to be stable, cool, quiet, and performant while not costing like a car appears to be too much.

Burner

My hard drive has finally filled up and I was unwilling to delete the House episodes I've pirated as I believe I'll want to watch them again, so I've bought a DVD burner. A dirt-cheap Sony DW-Q30A (actually a LiteON SHW-1635S) was what the local store had on hand, and the review said it's ok. A switch to 80 ribbon cable, firmware flash and setting the burn speed to x4 managed to get it to consistently write successfully on cheap x8 media, as long as I don't do anything IO intensive while it chugs away. My hard drives are struggling with the demand for consistent high speed reads, especially as the files got heavily fragmented on an almost-full disk. I have to say two seasons on four disks is a welcome change from burning a whole cake, both time and space-wise. I'm a bit worried about the media's longevity so I'll probably go and pick up some good archival quality media, but what I have should be enough to relieve storage pressure.

With the free space, I'm pirating 24.

No Update

Frankly, I have nothing to say. I have family in Haifa, but they are all safe. Some friends who serve in the north but don't have to have been reassigned to the center. Some people's end of semester exams have been postponed. I try not to feel anything about the dead and injured. My neighbor from when I grew up got married. A friend of mine from training is getting married in August. Another friend from training is getting married in September. Life goes on. Thank you for worrying, Emily.

software/life

First of all, I have to say that I have been using XMMS for years now, and having discovered Amarok in Mark's essentials list I feel ashamed, because I realize I have been living in the dark ages. XMMS is basically WinAmp 0.9, the kind that was bundled with Netscape 4 IIRC, so it's quite dated by Q3 '06. Anyway, Amarok rocks, and MusicBrainz (integrated music fingerprint identification system) is awesome. And it's all free!

On a completely unrelated note, girls are a wonderful thing, because they don't have this competitive macho thing that's going on whenever young males interact. I find it very relaxing. So much so, that I'm even contemplating increasing my interaction with females up from "never" all the way to "occasionally", which is, admittedly, a very large step.

Update

• The weather is hellish.
• Strangely, I'm excited about my current assignment. I wonder how long that will last.
• Was ordered to give a presentation on a system I've participated in building to rest of dpt. Was horrible, because I didn't return to the big picture after each chapter so people who lost me midway had no way to reorient themselves.
• Appears to have found a bug in IBM C/C++ compiler for zOS, systems people promised to check whether it's documented.
• Female team member appears to be afraid of me. I didn't do anything, it's just that none of us are all ok in the head.
• New team member is the most painfully extroverted person I've met, with no tact whatsoever, zero experience in behaving at a workplace, programming, working in teams, quasi-military reality, etc.
• Immediate boss is control freak, not talented at management at all.
• Services we must rely on provided by other departments don't work so it looks like our stuff doesn't work and we look like idiots to our clients.
• Buddy got left in the sun for more than ten hours because security officer freaked and decided that state of alert equals war and he can disregard the regs. His CO couldn't do anything about it.
• Got detention for a week for being late. Spending it in an air conditioned room with a fridge, microware oven, cold/hot water thingy, phone with civilian line and an unmonitored broadband internet connection reminded me once again that I'm not really in the army. Was kind of a vacation!
• I work in the public sector, so it all sucks, and I can't quit because I'm under contract. Because I can't quit, they can treat me like shit, and sometimes they do. Of course they know they get shitty work from an unsatisfied, undermotivated, undertrained, unwilling, often even downright depressed and rebellious workforce, but because it's the public sector (no competition, budget is decided with no correlation to actual work being done, promotions are decided with no correlation to accomplishments) nobody cares. Does that sound cynical enough? I'm a real patriot of my country, BTW, and I believe in doing what I can to improve what I can, but really, the system fights you every step of the way.
• Boss' boss said a number of PHB lines so bad I had to force myself not to literally ROFL on the spot. Unrelated buzzword spewage is not funny when you have to actually work with the man.
• AM2 and Conroe both look good. Of course Conroe is designed in Israel, so I'd buy that, but if AM2 still beats Intel at price/performance with moderate overclocking, I'll probably vote for the underdog.
• FFDB goes nowhere, but I haven't given up yet, it's just that carving time is hard when you're depressed and no one shows interest anyway.
• The latest fandom wank sounds all exciting, but I haven't read it yet. [Ed - I've meant the mssrcibe story by bad_penny]

Take care.